The Monster

What I should do, what I should not,

The thoughts are tethering my brain into a knot

What I should say, think, do, mind

Maybe a little change will help me find

So I leave, despite the pouring rain

I walk upright, showing others no sign of strain

But solitude fills a different scare inside me

My instincts tell me that someone is following me

My pace quickens; I start gasping for breath

Losing my way didn’t matter; my mind was focussed on the threat

Too tired to run anymore, I look ahead

And exclaim, for I have reached a dead end.

Through the faint street light, I see the monster approaching behind

I scream and turn around; on meeting my end so soon I wasn’t quite inclined.

But there was nobody there; I then had an epiphany

I realised where my “monster” was - the inside of me.

-Heena Purohit

♥

I wrote this poem just a few minutes back, and came up with it while listening to Lady Gaga’s Monster (although it has no correlation with my poem, apart from the title of course). I have realised that there is always someone/something holding me back. I want to do so much more. I know I deserve and am capable of doing all of it. There is a lot more to me than meets the eye. However, there is always something that comes in my way. And more times than few, that person is me.

There’s always a ‘what if’ or a ‘but’ that pops up every time I think of doing something. So the “monster” is inside of me, and not someplace else. And from now on, I shall choose to ignore it and endure my march ahead